I need someone to talk to.

God, I can't afford counseling, I have no person that I can trust with my innermost feelings. God answers me not and speaks not to me. Where shall I turn? Whom will help me in my greatest need? Who can I trust? Oh feel that I am, there is no one. Nothing matters, I should just go back on the cymbalta and take the pills to my dying day, at least then I am numb enough to function in life without this despair.