Close call
Wow, I went of my meds for a while. BIG MISTAKE! I thought I would be ok, but no, two months after stopping them, I crashed big time. I mean crashed ... mentally, physically, emotionally. i nearly lost it. I turned to God, thank God. He in HIs infinite love and wisdom gave me the answer I needed so much. I need those meds. I can't do it without them. Now I have been back on them for nearly a month and life is back to being pretty good. Thank God always for His love.
“I know that man is nothing”
“It came to pass that it was for the space of many hours before Moses did again receive his natural strength like unto man; and he said unto himself: Now, for this cause I know that man is nothing, which thing I never had supposed” (Moses 1:10).
•How did Moses describe himself as compared to God?
Moses had seen God, and felt the strength and power of God, he realized that compared to God, he was nothing, he had no strength, no power.
•How can a little child be of infinite worth and still be nothing when compared to his or her parents?
A child is of infinite worth because of their innocence and their dependance upon parents. They can do nothing without their parents, they are completely and totally dependent upon their parents for everything.
•Write about how recognizing your helplessness to overcome your addiction on your own can bring you to admit your own nothingness and become as a little child.
I have tried many things to loose weight and nothing works. I finally have given up. I realize that I cannot do this without God's help. I cannot do anything without God's help. I am nothing. I can do nothing. I am like a child, lost, forgotten and without guidance. I need God's help to overcome this addiction I have to food. I cannot control my cravings. I cannot control my appetite. I cannot control myself. I get so hungry. I want so much to eat everything. I binge and binge and binge. How can I control this? It is quite obvious, I can't. I need God's help, His redeeming power to save me.
•How did Moses describe himself as compared to God?
Moses had seen God, and felt the strength and power of God, he realized that compared to God, he was nothing, he had no strength, no power.
•How can a little child be of infinite worth and still be nothing when compared to his or her parents?
A child is of infinite worth because of their innocence and their dependance upon parents. They can do nothing without their parents, they are completely and totally dependent upon their parents for everything.
•Write about how recognizing your helplessness to overcome your addiction on your own can bring you to admit your own nothingness and become as a little child.
I have tried many things to loose weight and nothing works. I finally have given up. I realize that I cannot do this without God's help. I cannot do anything without God's help. I am nothing. I can do nothing. I am like a child, lost, forgotten and without guidance. I need God's help to overcome this addiction I have to food. I cannot control my cravings. I cannot control my appetite. I cannot control myself. I get so hungry. I want so much to eat everything. I binge and binge and binge. How can I control this? It is quite obvious, I can't. I need God's help, His redeeming power to save me.
Encompassed by temptations
“I am encompassed about, because of the temptations and the sins which do so easily beset me. “And when I desire to rejoice, my heart groaneth because of my sins; nevertheless, I know in whom I have trusted. “My God hath been my support; he hath led me through mine afflictions in the wilderness; and he hath preserved me upon the waters of the great deep. “He hath filled me with his love, even unto the consuming of my flesh” (2 Nephi 4:18–21).
•Do you feel encompassed or trapped?
Yes, I not only feel encompassed by sin, sloth and gluttony, I am filled with the stink of it. I don't know how to change. I don't know what to change. I am so weak and I am so tired. I don't understand how I can live my life like this. I am either driving my family away, thus trapping myself in the terror that has become my life, or I am including them with me. I am like a woman in a pit, A filthy pit of despair and sorrow from which I cannot escape.
•When do you feel this way most often?
Whenever there is the threat of someone coming to my home. Whenever I want to stuff my face with whatever disgusting food I can find. Whenever I am alone and sad. All the time in fact. I don't believe there is a time I don't feel trapped. A time I don't feel alone.
•When Nephi felt overwhelmed, in whom did he place his trust?
Nephi trusts in the Lord. He knows that God is there to support him and to lead him through his afflictions. He felt God's love deeply, unto the consuming of his flesh. Oh that I could feel that love.
•What can you do to place more trust in the Lord?
I don't know ... Believe that He loves me? Even when my unworthy feelings tell me that He doesn't, that He can't love me. Believe His words. Obey His commandments. It seems to me that through obedience to His laws and finding the courage to trust Him and see His love for me that I would be placing more trust in Him. The big question is how do I do that?
•Do you feel encompassed or trapped?
Yes, I not only feel encompassed by sin, sloth and gluttony, I am filled with the stink of it. I don't know how to change. I don't know what to change. I am so weak and I am so tired. I don't understand how I can live my life like this. I am either driving my family away, thus trapping myself in the terror that has become my life, or I am including them with me. I am like a woman in a pit, A filthy pit of despair and sorrow from which I cannot escape.
•When do you feel this way most often?
Whenever there is the threat of someone coming to my home. Whenever I want to stuff my face with whatever disgusting food I can find. Whenever I am alone and sad. All the time in fact. I don't believe there is a time I don't feel trapped. A time I don't feel alone.
•When Nephi felt overwhelmed, in whom did he place his trust?
Nephi trusts in the Lord. He knows that God is there to support him and to lead him through his afflictions. He felt God's love deeply, unto the consuming of his flesh. Oh that I could feel that love.
•What can you do to place more trust in the Lord?
I don't know ... Believe that He loves me? Even when my unworthy feelings tell me that He doesn't, that He can't love me. Believe His words. Obey His commandments. It seems to me that through obedience to His laws and finding the courage to trust Him and see His love for me that I would be placing more trust in Him. The big question is how do I do that?
Men are STUPID
I don't understand it either. How can men be so stupid? They are just idiots ... Mine included.
I need someone to talk to.
God, I can't afford counseling, I have no person that I can trust with my innermost feelings. God answers me not and speaks not to me. Where shall I turn? Whom will help me in my greatest need? Who can I trust? Oh feel that I am, there is no one. Nothing matters, I should just go back on the cymbalta and take the pills to my dying day, at least then I am numb enough to function in life without this despair.
Sad
I am so sad. My heart hurts. I feel the swelling feelings of unhappiness and even despair. I live a life of gluttony and hedonism. How did this happen to me? How did everything else become so important in my life? What can I do to change this? I am so incredibly alone and so incredibly sad. It feels like nothing can or will ever change. I live in squalor and filth. I dwell in loneliness and misery. How do I change it. Can I change it. Will God change it? By small and simple things great things are brought to pass. So it would seem not to me. I cannot even do the small and simple things to bring to pass greatness. I am so unhappy. yet I know that I deserve not happiness. I have done too much. I have been gone too long from home. When will this endless hell be over. This endless sorrow and misery of a life I live. Let it end.
Gluttony
I think I am a glutton. How can it be that I find food more important than anything? I watched the six wives of henry the viii and it showed how he ate, gluttonous and disgusting. I think I am like that. fat, gluttonous, disgusting. I have no appeal to my husband. I am a huge obese disgusting glutton. I don't know how to change either.